Posts Tagged ‘#barenaked’

Reminisce

Posted: May 25, 2017 in Heartache
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When I let go of your hand, I never let go of your heart. It was slow on my part, hopeful. Hopeful that you might one day wake up and realize I was all you ever needed. So I waited and waited, slowly unclasping those fingers that never held me back. 

I never left and I never will. A part of me looks for you in between smiles and unmet dreams. I look for you in his words that tell me I’m beautiful and that he has never met anyone as free as me. Those words echo my insecurity where my sense of freedom is mistaken for easy. I worshipped you and vowed to not be anyone’s anything if I wasn’t going to be your someone. So I wait even now for a place, a word, a poem, a music, a profile picture that tells me I’m not alone. That your heart didn’t let go of me. I have your name tied as my price tag and that’s no way to live. I know that’s not me.

I let go of you slowly hoping you will look back…but you never did.And that’s the saddest part.💔

Please just leave!

I will find my bed in his,

A band aid to what I miss,

Unmet to be with yours.

Not a choice but a wall,

A shroud kept veiled,

A guard away from home.

I beg you to steal me,

I surrender his fortress,

I take down  “pleasure”.

Here, smell my neck,

Find the bruises he left,

The marks on my breast,

The tingles in my feet,

The clench in my thighs,

The moan in my throat,

The cries in my high,

Take it all away!

Tarnish it if you dare,

I have tried that before,

It only leaves me cold,

I need to be left cold,

It is only natural,

I know what I have lost.