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Here, Superman stays.

Posted: February 2, 2018 in #words, Missing you like crazy
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I write because you broke my heart.

I write because you took away my words.

I write because the pain reminds me to stay away.

I write because it always leads me to you;

I write because in these words, we are everything we couldn’t be.

I write for there is no better place or realm for us than here.

I write because I can freely admit I love you, still. 

I write because we make sense in the melancholy of words. 

And I am home. You. Me. Words.

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I’m drowning you with love,

I’m strangling you with gratitude,

Until your tongue bleeds my name,

Until your heart accepts its place,

My martyr heart clings to no one else.

Even when I let go of you,

Even then….

You still look for me with regret,

You still look at me with regret.

Perhaps this isn’t final,

Perhaps he would choose me,

Perhaps he feels the same,

Perhaps he won’t let go,

Perhaps he would make me stay,

Perhaps he is sleepless,

Perhaps he calls out my name,

Perhaps he is better off,

Perhaps I held him back,

Perhaps He is happy,

Perhaps I’m scared to know,

Our perhaps is all that’s left to show.

Parallel universe

Posted: January 23, 2017 in Missing you like crazy
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There is this sad reality in time differences. That I sleep when you wake up. That I dream when you are living. That I cry when you’re snoozing. That I laughed when you didn’t hear me.

There is the unsigned agreement of yet being apart, of being equally unknown to each other as we aspire to exist in today that we are yet in each other’s yesterday. The regurgitations of our time zones is the expansion of you and I in tomorrow and yesterday and live still in our own today. 

Maybe this is the parallel universe we talked about…

You are a national anthem,

The realms I can’t fathom,

The legends I hear-

Of kingdoms you ruled,

Of hearts you won,

Of homes you built,

That led to my hovel,

Trodden from the passers by,

That never learned to stay,

Fearful of those who remain,

Fighting off their unmarked scars,

Holding on to strong pillars,

Content within my shell,

Unwavering to everyone,

Everyone

Except You

My prince charming on a boat,

My angel with superman’s cloak,

My Clyde to the rebel in me,

My reason when words fail me,

My fight so I never lose hope,

My trophy from heavens,

For the deeds weighed embellished,

If they take you away from me,

If you don’t fight to stay,

Let it be known,

I died that day.

I say if you had missed me as much as I do, that you would die. But that’s me being kind. Missing you hurts as bad as the worst pain you could imagine. It is like taking the last gasps of air, hungry for air, only to realize that it too hurts. Breathing hurts but that must happen each second, just to survive. Death is merciful…this is self destruction with a beautiful melody called life without you.

No you don’t comprehend the intense flame that torches these feelings…for I have yet not understood it too.

No, you won’t EVER miss me as much as I do. No!! Just be a kind and remain worthy of it💔

These conversations take time,

These people are others,

They are not you.

The lunch with a friend,

The coffee with a mate,

The laughter in a bar,

They are not you,

And you are far.

Though I hold you close,

Distance keeps us apart,

Roads… lakes… time,

These keep us apart,

I can’t change those,

But I can choose,

My home,

My niche,

My galaxy,

And you to be my true north.

Don’t tell me to go out more,

To befriend others,

To fill my thoughts,

These are all nuisances,

I don’t need distractions!

Leave me alone,

There…there is home.